We are NOT a socialable animal.

It really pains me to say this, being a human myself, but humans are a disgustingly unsocialable animal. It's in our nature to be violent, alienating and quite simply rude. Evolution needed us to be, or we wouldn't have survived to be the dominant species of our planet. However, genes express themselves depending on their environment. It's the same with our mentality. Long story short, we've grown up around civilization (some in less civilised part of the world than others) and we learn to adapt to be friendly, to be socialable. It's survival instinct. If you're a nice guy, you won't get beaten up in the playground.

The internet messed it up. It provided nigh unlimited anonymity. With it, and with almost no fear of repercussions, we regress and become aggressive again. Or at least we [i]can[/i]. Fortunately, thanks to the power of the subconscious most of us maintain the programming of being polite and courteous. But it seems more and more people are breaking the program and becoming unbearably rude.

Most people disagree with me when I say humans, naturally, are not socialable but it's true. If you were to lock yourself away in isolation from your friends for a month or two and then try and socialise again. Chances are, you won't know what to do.

So far behind...

I'm so far behind on everything. I haven't been studying, drawing, making games or anything really for that matter. Hopefully I'll get something productive done tonight. My current goal is getting some sketches done for when my personal website inevitably goes live. Some games and/or other content wouldn't go too far amiss.

Currently working on a game called Morituri te Salutant. A very simple game, where you're a gladiator and constantly fighting against other gladiators. But as bodies begin to rise from the dirt and your fellow gladiators go missing from their cells at night you team up with the other team's captain to find out what's going on.

Shouldn't take too much longer, and will only offer roughly five or six hours of gameplay, if that. It will be free though, so take that into account.

Anyway, I'll post again if I can get some sketches scanned. In case I do, I'll warn you, I suck at drawing so don;t expect any Da Vinci's or anything.

It's Almost Over

My Valedictorian and hence graduation is coming up in two and a half weeks. After that, I'm finally free of school, no more stupid rules to be followed. The only downside is I won't be able to see my friends every day, but every cloud has a black lining as well as silver one.

After that it's a mere three weeks before my big exam is over, then I'm truly free. I can't wait. Then it's on to college where I'm independent (to a degree). And thanks to the miracles of Bebo, Facebook and MySpace (all of which I actually hate), I'll be able to stay in touch with those I want to. It'll be tough, but I find it so difficult to find people who are actually nice and not just pretending and I'd rather not let go of those I have.

Anywho, expect a few more posts as time goes on. As for now, au revoir.

Sometimes...

Sometimes, you try as hard as you can and still fail.

Sometimes, you wake up screaming and you don't even know why.

The ones who matter leave and you remain tearless, but you get insulted once by someone you'll never speak to again and all of a sudden it matters so much.

We weep, we whine. We struggle and we die.

Sometimes it's all we can do just to live as normally as we can in a world which shuns difference, which shuns non-conformity. Commercialism, labels.

We plan to boycott the Olympic Games in China because of their human rights violations against the Tibetans, yet we still wear clothes made by children in sweatshops, as though they don't matter.

Religious zealots moan and whine (Christian, Muslim, Jew, it doesn't matter) when someone questions their religious beliefs, and call them ignorant. Yet they are too blind to even ask why they believe what they do. They believe because they were told to.

Sometimes we forget who we should really serve. We've been serving the wrong masters and we don't see that.

And those that try to stand out, try to change things for the better are shunned and mocked and threatened. It's only a matter of time before all the "big baddies" are gone. What do you think they'll do when there are no more xenophobic wars to be fought. They'll find those who stand out. They'll find witches and heretics. What do you think they'll do when they need someone just to burn.

Sometimes, I hope....

Still no news

See what I have to put up with? God this existence is boring. It's just the same old crap every damn day. Although today did start off with a bang. I woke up at half one in the morning due to a particularly nasty dream. Didn't bother going back to sleep, though I intend to sleep tonight. Important exams in a few days, so I need my rest.

I'll try and make up something tomorrow, as I'm going into town so something interesting should happen.

I need to work..

I am so unbelievably lazy. I've been meaning to get some decent comic or art work done for two weeks now and I've done nothing. Well tonight I should get something done. I didn't sleep last night and the night before was rather....uncomfortable, so I figure I'll work on something tonight, be it my game, my planned webcomic, my art or my in-planning website.

Just thought I'd write my plans here, seeing as I haven't written anything in a while. Shame I missed April Fools though... I should have done something. It's so ridiculously annoying when I want to write something, but I've no idea what to write. Well, hopefully tomorrow will bring something. Here's to hoping.

At long last...

I finally got a good nights sleep for the first time in months. Those tablets worked wonders. I slept for eight straight hours, and not one dream.

I'm heading out now, just wanted to post about the success of those tablets before I forgot.